This Is Natural....Right?

| Friday, May 21, 2010

I feel disgusted that I haven't written. I promise, now that Fringe, Lost, V, 24, Community, and Modern Family are all said and done for the season, I will write more. Then again I can't promise that. I love you, but not that much.

I Don't Know YOU

| Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Am I the only one who thinks it's a bit awkward when you're talking to someone like you know them only to get a good grade? Yes? Well, fuck you. What if I was explaining a movie that you've never seen, to see?...Fuck you anyway.

Jeeze...the memeories of writing this just came flooding back. It was a Sunday and my mom was probably making fried chicken. This shit had to be 3 pages. 3 FUCKING PAGES EXACTLY. Double spaced of course, but damn...If you've never seen Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind or haven't seen it in ages I guess you'll like this. If not, fuck you.

Hey! How are you? Have you seen any good movies lately? If not, I have a movie that I feel that you should take a look at. It’s called “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind”. The movie is about relationships and the complicatedness that comes with them and the contrivance in this film is miscommunication and tediousness. This leads one of the main characters, Clementine, to have her memory of her significant other be erased. Joel, the next main character, finds out that she has had this done and out of anguish, he goes to the company where she had this course of action made and after thinking about it, he decides to endure the same procedure to forget the love that they had shared and the downfall that led to their end. From then on, the film leads the viewer on a journey through Joel’s mind, as detailed as possible, showing the reasons why the relationship had turned bitter in the first place. The doctor and his associates play a crucial role in the process of erasing his memory. In many ways the movie works like a dream, making the watcher really pay close attention to the events that are going on. The interaction of the characters are primarily exchanged through memories, from courtship to the end, and in the process, the doctor’s team run into issues because Joel begins to realize that he doesn’t want to forget this woman whom he loved dearly. So he begins to rebel by taking those memories of her and hide them in places of his mind where she doesn’t belong. I won’t spoil the end or the other situations that occur but the plot of the movie reflects on relationships and if they are ended hastily or with great pain, it would want to make to you wish there was a way to erase the moments that were shared together, whether they were good or bad. This movie shows that if these memories were reflected upon one more time, it might make you see what you had and lost, and maybe want to have again.

The film “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” meant a lot to me because it played as a catalyst in the current relationship I was in. Before me and my then significant other were going to see the movie, we were in the process of breaking up. Toward the staring time of the movie we decided to settle our dilemma after we had seen the movie. And ironically, the film dealt with what we were going through in a way. We had a problem, with dealing with each other, with trust and with communication just as the characters in the movie dealt with. Seeing the movie from one perspective, I saw that whoever you let into your heart, you do it carefully and when that’s done you begin to take the good along with the bad until you reach your wits end and decide that there are better things out there and some things that are very much worth forgetting, even if it’s someone that you deeply cared for. Another perspective is that some people cannot deal with pain mentally, thus reaching the result of going through a procedure that could possibly cause brain damage as in the movie. I mean, I wouldn’t go that far. In another prospective, it showed me that the mind chooses to remember memories that are both pleasant and unpleasant and how you choose to remember the pleasant ones far more. Keepsakes of times that were enjoyably shared are sometimes hard to throw away, but aid you in the steps of forgetting. In my case I wasn’t going to throw away several games for the original Nintendo console and the great books that were given to me to read. Some thing’s in my case were worth keeping and have me later forget where I got them from. But altogether, I choose to forget everything, with my own strong will. Though the movie did not help the relationship, I decided that it was my time to move on, and as in the movie, I wish I could have gotten some of my memory erased. Then again there is that old saying, “'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”

In closing, I think this movie will interest you because it’s an original film of its kind, representing love stories such as those to be more genuine in its aspects of loss and gain in relationships. The movie is dominant in drama, but is lightly tuned with comedy that isn’t hard to miss. The performance by Jim Carey, being the well-known funny man that he is, shows a softer and unanimated side that really makes you almost forget you’re watching the man that made “Ace Ventura” famous and understand his role as the wounded boyfriend that just wanted to have a second chance but is crushed and led to his desperate measures. Kate Winslet as eclectic, witty and sensitive Clementine shows a difference in her character choice as well. Distinctively, in her well known previous roles in drama and period pieces, this was just as revolutionary of a role as it was for Carey. The film makes fun of the fact that people believe that some thing of a higher power puts us together, things such as love at first sight, destiny and soul mates. Then the film adds a romantic intensity that makes this film go through experiences that you have never seen on film before. The movie prevails that, typically love stories do not have to end in the death of a loved one, or a final goodbye for your life to be altered. If it may be that the memories of a loved one is forgotten, then what pain have you suffered? What have you learned about yourself? Do people take truth to the saying “you never know what you've got until it's gone” or do they just go with the flow and concentrate on moving on? This leaves the characters open for a second chance to do things right in opposed to doing them wrong for a second time. Then again, how would they remember? So give the movie a try, you might just like it!

I got an A on this mutha, so sit and spin.

Unleash Hell :-p

Oedipus the King - What a Fag


In college, I really didn't care much about anything. This essay was one of them. I remember writing this on the LIRR...and that's it.

The cunt who I wrote it for probably gave me a C because I didn't mention how badly he wanted to fuck his mother.

In literature as in life, people through out time have felt the need to make changes in their lives that they seem will improve them, for some those changes are made to avoid the worse. That is true in the case of Oedipus in “Oedipus the King”. Through out this essay I will analyze the important role of destiny and fate and how it portrayed in the play.
In the beginning of the play, we are introduced to Oedipus, the King of Thebes, who appears to be much appreciated and closely followed. Throughout his kingdom a plague has been spread, and it was told that it was punishment for the killing of Laius who was the previous king of Thebes. Knowingly since the setting of the play is taking place during the Greek era, the Gods (and Goddesses) reflect how kingdoms and societies show act or if the Gods are pleased with how they are acting. With the murder of Laius, Oedipus has felt that he should put it upon himself to investigate the matter himself, not only for the sake of knowing but out of fear that he will be the next to die. At this point of the play, he is told not to investigate the matter because of what he may find. Oedipus refuses to listen; to some this shows how he does not keep in mind what did occur in the past, what fate he was supposed to have had met. Throughout the first half Oedipus declares severe punishment and banishment to whoever murdered Laius and he calls Oracles and other towns people to come forward with any information that they have. Teiresias, a blind man who is considered to be wise and helpful, Oedipus tells him of the oracle's statements and insists that he helps him find the killer. At first refuses but Oedipus asks him again, telling him that he is an enemy to Thebes if he refuses to help. Teiresias then tells Oedipus to look within himself before he blames others. "You are the cursed polluter of this land….the killer you are seeking is yourself…”you are living in sinful union with the one you love…living in ignorance of your own undoing.” At this Oedipus should have taken this warning to heart.
Later on we discover his wife, Jocasta, is his mother and he was part of three that killed his father. Though the act was done unknowingly, it was a fate that his mother was trying to avoid when she was told that her son would his father. Leaving her son for dead would have been for her the way to destroy that destiny, but in turn it did not. The same could have been true for Oedipus, because he was also told that he would kill his father, making him to thoughtless and oblivious. Foolishly he leaves his home in Corinth without further investigating the oracle's words and even though he did not know that Laius and Jocasta were his parents, he still does kill a man old enough to be his father and marry a woman old enough to be his mother. To some, a man with as disturbing a prophesy over his head as Oedipus would be very careful about who he married or killed. But he pursues the truth when others warn him not to; although he has already fulfilled the prophesy, he does not know it, and if he left well enough alone, he could continue to live in blissful ignorance. But instead he stubbornly rummages through his past until he discovers the awful truth. When discovering this truth he gouges his eyes out, buries his wife and departs from town leaving his sisters/daughters to live in shame of the horrid past that he created for them.
In conclusion, fate and destiny work very strongly together in everyday life. Through advice from family or other forms help, some events in your life can be changed but at times that advice is never taken but in the end your fate will lead you in that same direction. It is unfortunate to see that this was the case for Oedipus, but the same destiny could be for anyone.

Unleash Hell :-p

I Have Such A Way With Words


Recently I've been having some headaches so writing hasn't been #1 on my list. I found some word documents of rants to companies and old school assginments that's brought me aces. So why not share?

This first one is to AOL back on 2005. What I really wanted to say was "Stop braking my balls you assholes and quit billing me for your imaginary service." But think I got the point across. Since it's been 5 years, I have no idea if they actually stopped billing me.

There has been an overwhelming amount billed to my house phone that has tallied to $181.10 and growing interest. I am unclear when it did not stop because I received my cable modem in the late months of 2005. I had requested some following months that I switched to DSL/Cable and would no longer need Dial-up minutes. I am refusing to pay this amount because the matter was settled sometime ago and I am already paying for DSL/Cable fee service. Please, I would appreciate if this matter was fixed at the soonest possible time.

Yeah, bitch!

Unleash Hell :-p